People say I'm confused.. I'm complicated.. I do not know what I want in my life.. 

Well! They may be right or may not be.. It doesnt matter. What bothers me is the thought that what if all these things make me doubt myself, what if I start believing in what others say. What if I start to change and not for good and start to pretend what I'm not. What if all these things comes true. 

I'm terrified right now. I'm insecure about being me. I may not be good but atleast I'm me. And tel me whoz not confused, or whoz not messed up, everyone of us are, at some point or the other. 

Just because I can't decide about one thing in my life, it makes me messed up but it doesnt make others any less of it I guess. 

The worst part is not this, its that I cannot even talk to anybody about this. Because then people will give you suggestion which I don't want. At once I just want to be heard. No answers, no suggestion, no question.. Just listen to me.. Not everytime of course... But For once.